I was feeling positive this morning, so thought to meditate and calm myself. But in afternoon because of some activities around me I lost my calmness and I started shouting and almost broke things around me.
Also in the evening with my friends I behaved rudely and left them. This is not me. I m very calm by nature, but after the meditation process I started to feel violent, I wanted to punch people, smash things, shout at others. I was so pissed and mad at myself, my feelings were out of control.
Then, I searched on Google about my current situation and I found a spiritual guidance page where the cause and solution of my problem was explained.
While we meditate, the energy in our body start to release and the energy in past which were stored in form of rage, frustration, anger also releases. This was the reason I was feeling so aggressive. Because I m not an expressive person and I had too much inside me which once hurt me and it all released in form of aggression.
Art heals everything, so I started drawing. And I was shocked to see the outcome.
I started crying, I still don’t know the reason. But I cried a lot, all the past memories hit back. I cried for like half an hour in the dark room. The part of me that was hurt once upon a time was healing. I am feeling light now. This is called cleansing of soul.
After that drew again. I feel calm, soothing and relaxed but also tired. But the best part is I made peace with my mind which was struggling from morning.